in the breeze!

Mood: Stoned?
Current weight: 58 kgs

I was sitting alone at my desk and stoned (???). I tried to write something over works but hesitated for quite sometime until it was an hour passed. My mind blanked and I can't figured anything to do at the moment. I looked at the window and saw a few stars in the sky, barely shine in dim moonlight.

Okay. I sighed.

I re-winded everything that happened in my life and I felt like I missed something. It's heart-gripping and torturing my mind but never my heart.

There's no day goes by I forget about you

My heart never been wavered by anything. I just thought maybe I'd lost track of my life but heck I don't think so. Maybe I just need some more time. Just hang on a little and I'll make it through.

Relax Darlyn, you CAN make it through.

p/s: Maybe I just miss my Mr. S. Cepat2 la saya sembuh dari demam. Ia sgt menyeksakan jiwa dan raga saya..!

in which i'm not okay but not act like one!

Mood: Over sensitive, feel like crying all the time!
Current weight: 58 kgs. Semalam baru weigh. Ok gak demam ni kan?

Because I'm a bit dizzy today and don't really feel that fine, I'm overly sensitive and nearly cry (maybe I did cried) over a childish prank! Okay2, just let not fret over things like that. I went to see the doctor yesterday and my fever is not that bad. Only to get a lot of rest; which means TIDO jela kan. And yes, I think I sleep a lot and I already have eye bags now. Last few days were great weekend for me. On Friday till Saturday nights ada program Putra Idol which was really fun. Thanks to Kak Ima. We had great time together and the contestants were very talented. We enjoyed the show so much! Demam2 pun, I still went there because dah promised ngn Kak Ima, and I also need some air. Feel suffocated in my own world, need to get out!

With Taufik. A dear friend, mentor, adviser and a dear brother =)

With Kak Ima.
A dear friend, mentor and a really dear sister to me here =)

Then on Sunday, we have Program PERIKSA for UPMKB Semester 1 students before they sit for their semester final exam.  The program was great and quite a hype. Even though only half of 350 students attended the program. It's quite disappointing for us the facilitators to share a lot of things with them whilst not everyone even take part with the program. Macam dah bijak sgt la kan tak nak involve with such a great program provided by the campus? But no worries. There were 180 other students  gave 200% commitment towards the program which we were so grateful for them for coming. Taufik and I discussed a lot of things to share with this BSBI students on the day of the program (mcm la byk sgt discuss). But no one even appears. Very disappointing!

As far as I could remember, time I undergrad dulu, we are so not rebellious macam this BSBI batch. Weird to see how far the gap between a few years generations resulting something like this. Bukan gap 100 tahun pun. Tapi tak pe la. Maybe at that time, we are so not good and tak gempak cam diorang sekarang ni, kan? So, we just wait and see je la.

in which i'm letting go my comel!

Mood: Demam panas. Sore throat. Dizzy.
Weight: 58.5 kgs. just in a few days I lost 1.5 kgs already. Kena demam selalu ni..

Tadahhhh! This is my Comel, my scooter baby! it's black but I love her so much! Apparently I'm going home for good next month so I think have to let go Comel to a new owner. I'm opening it to any UPM Kampus Bintulu students or staffs. Or maybe any Bintulu residents.

I baru service semua and her conedition is really good. I use her for almost 3 years and only need a few service to maintain her condition.

See, she's cute and chubby! Haha

From front view. She's still that cute okay!

Comel's Details and Background:

Brand: Suzuki

Model name: AN125

Year: 1999 (10 years old and still standing strong!)

No. Pendaftaran:  QTB 7061

Let go for/ Sale for: MYR1800.00 (still can negotiate)

So, if you're interested, just let me know. Email me at darlyn225(at)gmail(dot)com or contact me at this no. +6017-9660989. Kalo girls, bole jumpa I yourself at J113 Kolej Sri Rajang.

Nak test drive or anything, just contact ok!

p/s: Tag to anyone interested. This is really urgent!

the workstation!

Mood: Squishy and fluffy
Current weight: 60 kgs. Yes, you hear me right, 60 kgs people! I don't know what went wrong but that just happend; today!

So, malas nak cerita panjang2. Aku buat keje lagi bagus la kan. Pastu tibe2 datang satu idea, I just want to snap photos of my working space in my room. It is slightly a small space, but means everything to me.  Ni lah tempat aku buat keje, tgk cerita Korea, bace manga, reading journals, books and stuff. It's a bit messy too, but I'll always keep it clean bagi mata sedap memandang, baru la bole buat keje. Ye dak?

 My workstation ;p

Ye, ye, aku tau tak la cantik sangat kan. Tak de la compartment ke, divider board ke ape ke. Yang penting, I like it just the way it is. Buat keje sampai tertido2 kat meja, sampai cam nak terkehel my neck pun ada gak. Sounds silly, but it happened to me okay. On the right nampak tak tingkap aku tutup ngn newspaper? Haha. Lawak kan? Looks funny and uncivilized. Langsir plak ada aku ikat sampai mcm tu sekali ngn reben merah kuning. Ehem. Korang ada?? Wakaka. 

Nampak tak tin biskut Jacob under the desk? That's a must. I eat crackers a lot and it's like my alas perut whenever I'm lazy to get my breakfast. And of course a mug of coffee/nescaffee. And it looks like I gantung anything I found in my room at the walls. Haha. I kan pemalas. Habit. I don't really have a good sight of stuff so I tend to put everything in front of me where I can see so that in future I know where I put them. Voila!

I've dreamed of a nice workstation at my own house someday. With a big bookshelf and/or surrounded by bookshelves with loads of my books and stuff. Oh I love thee. Berangan memang I pandai. Haha. Kat umah I mane ada study room. Orang susah kan. Bukan orang senang pun. So, berangan2 tu memang wajib. So, bayangkan if I have this small workstation in my bedroom now..Wouldn't it be glorious?! Sgt simple and cute kan? Bilik anak I nanti la kut. Hehe. (Kan dah cakap, BERANGAN!).

 (Source: I just take from the website)

So, moral of the story, I just want a clean and neat workstation to do my work. Adios!

in which nak tyg food!

Mood: Lapar yang AMAT!
Current weight: 59 kgs kut. But I don't care coz I'm hungry now, could finish anything!

It's lunch time and I'm not having my lunch yet. I couldn't get out because there's a roadblock in campus. Yeah, you read it right, but why? I have no motor license. Kereta ada la. Tapi camner nak jawab kalo dia tanya nape lesen kete bukan lesen motor???

So, conclusion is, I can't buy anything for lunch yet. Huhu. So aku godek2 my phone, tengok ada banyak food snaps minggu lepas. Ape lagi, tayang je la..!

p/s: Abaikan background meja study I ye. Memang sepah kalo dah lapar. Tgh buat keje gile2 pun I'll stop and tossing anything aside the table to make a space to eat. haha.

Coffee and choclate cupkace. Had for dinner few days ago. 

A bit dry but I can still swallowed it down.Haha

Fried Fettuccine with fresh chopped tomato. Yum2.

Just mix and campak ape yg patut. Few garlic will make the trick.

 This is the best! Mashed potato with tomato sauce. Nak buat gravy takde bahan. So blend the potato with some black pepper and salt. Memang sedap giler. And fried spaghetti with garlic and sprinkled with mixed herbs.

This was my invention la kut. I don't know what to name it but I made it like soup. It tasted very refreshing and look at the big vege size! haha. Takpe2, tekak I je yang telan.Memang sedap. Eat with sphaggetti. Ummpph!

 Okay, aku still makan nasi ok. This was nasi lemak from UPMKB FC. 

Takla sedap sangat. But since Farah dah belanje, aku telan jer.
And don't forget a hot nescaffee!

Last but not least, nasi kerabu from Food Court Shell Bintulu. Weird doesn't it? Normally we have blue colored rice. But this one was YELLOW! At that time I never realized it but after I snapped the photo; Hey, it's YELLOW! Tapi nafsu lapar membuak2, I just ate the whole thing! Haha.

 Desert mesti ada. baru syok kan? Haha. Ni time bile entah.
Vanilla ice-cream with fresh-picked mulberry yang dicuri di UPMKB. Haha.

Spaghetti and fettuccine aku masak secara haram kat bilik. Haha. Biasa la kan. Student. Hehe. Korang sure tak makan benda yang aku makan and aku masak men campak2 jer. My taste is a bit weird and I don't really know how to cook deliciously. Tak tipu ek. Adik aku selalu kutuk2 aku so I know where I stand in F&B line. Haha. Eh, agak2 ada roadblock lagi tak? I'm HUNGRY!
 

in which i'm reading!

Mood: My stomach is churning..or growling.???
Current weight: Maybe it's 59 kgs again today. LOL

                The book and that's me behind it, covered with the book ;p

SO it's weekend and it's only one thing for me, READING!!! I kind of not having any perfect reading nook here, hoping that I can get at least a comfortable chair but I guess it will be at my workstation in my room la. So, aku terpakse la membaca with having a severe back pain..

Currently reading The Life O'Riley by Brian Cohen. Requested by the author for a fair review. So, that's me, and liking the book. Belum habis lagi. I have so many works and I'm reading in a very slow pace. Wish I could do better, Sorry Mr. Cohen!

the very late birthdaypool!

Mood: Same old same old.
Current Weight: 50 kgs. (WHAT??) Nah..It's 58.5 ks for today. LOL

Tak banyak sgt aku nak citer. But then, just scroll down and look at the pictures ok ;p

Syafiq and I, dah berzaman, tapi baru nak upload ;p

Haruslah attach, tumpang glamour kan..Lagipun kat bawah, there's no me!

Jadi photographer. No one bring camera. So mangsanya adalah I-Phone aku!

 Tengok, semua happy. Kak Ima siap peace lagi!hahaha

Syafiq memang siap lentok2..Haha.

 Nuar dengan gaya tak sabar nak potong kek..

Kak Ima pun excited sama.

Eh, Mawi, blah kau! Tibe2 jer masuk nak tiup lilin jugak!Hahaha..

These are the birthday peeps!

Poo, Nuar, Syam and Kak Ima.

p/s: Nuar punya muka asyik pandang kek jer..Memang pelahap.

But I think the biggest glutton is me. Hahaha.

lalala..oh..happy day...

ooo..happy day...

oooooo haaaappppy dayyyyyy!

p/s 2: Just compare ma cake and THEIR cake. Sikit punya besar kek kitorang...Haha..

in which i'm broke!

Mood: Fuzzy and dizzy
Current Weight: 58 kgs. (Hari aku puasa okk!)

So, ape nak cite hari ni..Oh yer, aku BROKE! And do you know what's that means? Means, I'm short in money or in the right words, have no money. I have, but cukup2 makan. Kesian kan? I'm the eldest in my family and I seldom asked for money from my parents. Aku anak mithali ok! Sometimes ada juga macam susah hati sebab tak tau mane nak dapat duit kan. Tapi I'm admitting my fault and mistakes here. I had my scholarship but unfortunately it ran out and I have to find another source. So I did a part time job, making money through my kelayakan akademik la. Takkan nak buat pekasam Degree yang ada kan? Tapi not making much lah. Quarter from what I get from my monthly scholarship for two years ago. But I'm not fretting, just wondering. why. That's all.

So, the purpose behind the story is, I'm broke. Nothing more, nothing less.

Just an advice, selagi boleh saving sikit2 tu, saving la. Baru tak susah kemudian hari. Ni dari pengalaman yang positive okay. I HAVE MY SAVING!

p/s: Puasa hari ni. Selain mejimatkan, bole menambah pahala dan dijauhkan dosa dunia. ;p

I wish I can grow money on tree like this!

the book shelf!

Mood: Still lagi very enthusiastic!
Current weight: 59 kgs!

So this is my current bookshelf. Mr. S. mms the picture (minus the blurry effect!) to me few days back and I love him rearranging the books for me! He's such a dear and very dependable person. And here I thought I'm such a lucky person to be with him =)

Thanks dear!

By the way, when I asked him to list down all the books;

Mr. S: Nanti2 la..Bukan syg nak list dalam National Library kan?

Me: Baikkkkk

Anyway, I have a BIG box of UNREAD books I've won recently at my mom's house. So I guess I have to ask Mr. S to buy me another big bookshelf! LOL.

the close buddies!

I love this picture! Ni time pegi trekking di Similajau National Park. Sangat best and I nearly lost weight around 2 kgs after that. Bagus kan beriadah macam ni. Anyway, pengalaman bersama kawan2 sangat dihargai. Dah tak tahu bila lagi nak enjoy macam ni. Masing2 dah ada macam ada life and I tend to keep low and that way for now. Yela, masing2 memang busy and perlu siapkan pelbagai kerja. Takkan aku nak ganggu kan?

Mood: Really bersemangat buat kerja
Current weight: 59 kgs!

the miss part!

HANYUT by Faizal Tahir

Harus bagaimana lagi

Dan terus begini

Dengarkan aku

Lihat ke mataku

Cukup sudah kau menghukum

Salahku tetap salahku

Benarkan ku berbicara

Agar bisa pulih semua

Namun harus sampai bila

Kau kan diam seribu bahasa

***

Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu

Fahamilah ku tak mampu terus tanpa kamu

Bagaimana ku nanti

Bila tiada mengganti

Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Saat mata terpejam

Hanya kau ku terbayang

Menghapus semua segala rasa di jiwaku

Saat mata terbuka

Kamulah yang pertama

Tak mampu aku

Bayangkan

Hidup tanpa dirimu

 ***

Aku memang bersalah

Selalu saja mengabaikan mu

Dan tapi dah ku sedari

Segala perit kau lalui

Ku terlupa kau terluka

Dan memang selalu

Aku bersalah

Selalu saja mengabaikan mu

Meninggalkan mu

Dan tetapi itulah aku sedari

Segala perit yang kau lalui

Kerna diriku yang terus hanyut

Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu

Bagaimana ku nanti

Bila tiada mengganti

Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Bagaimana ku nanti

Bila kau tak di sisi

Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

p/s: Mr. S sms me to listen to this song!

so that's my answer for you my dear

tu la, sape suh gaduh2 ngan Miss D kan?

padan muka!

the lost hope!

Mood: Quite in the mood?
Current Weight: 58.5 kgs, I think so.

Hmm. Well, kerja tak siap lagi but I bantai baca manga. Haha. What to do? I've so much things I have in mind but I couldn't do it straight and okay. I wish la kan, I will do better but it seems I've lost interest of what I'm suppose to do. Wargh!

So, I nearly (nearly aje k!) lost HOPE! I think I need a new inspiration or maybe a new brain! Haha. Lawak betul la tu kan..? Tapi, bila difikir-fikir balik, well, maybe I only need this;

Cute kan The Brain? LOL.

the dinner!

Mood: Not in the mood??
Current Weight: 59 kgs

Nothing to fancy today. I did my regular job; read, writing and read again. Macam nak pecah my brain. But, what to do, I already promised my supervisor that I will submit the paper tomorrow. It rains heavily today and it kind of brushed off my mood too.

But at least I have toast with chocolate and blueberry jam. It was tasty and I ate 4 pieces of it. Cis, itu pun nak cite kan? That's what maybe all of you have in mind. LOL. So, for tonight's dinner, I ate spaghetti, a lot! Haha.  Maybe I'll have something good again tomorrow =)

xoxo Miss S xoxo

the very first entry!

About Me???

Current Weight: 59 kgs (Yes, I will talk about it A LOAD!)

Well, after so much of considering and fikir2, I would love to have a personal blog about me, my life, my love and my future. Or maybe my happy ending. This is it (Macam Michael Jackson pulak LOL).

Nothing to fancy about me actually, I'm still single (tapi not eligible ok!). Have been engaged for about 2 years and 10 months, and I think it will go to 3 years just in a couple of month. And we have a long distance relationship. I'm in Sarawak and he's in Selangor. But I wouldn't care less about that because we are okay and happy. =)

Other than that I'm still studying, bcoz I am so tak berapa pandai, kenalah belajar lebih sikit. But no worries, I'm coping and adapting with it. And hopefully next year I will be graduating, again ;p

Like I said, I'm in Sarawak right now, but in less than two months I'll be going home. Happy tahap gaban! Hahaha! It's just that being here for almost 7 years really eating my brain man! I know it's Halloween approaching but I really doubt any zombie nak makan my brain. INFECTED! Kang ada pulak re-shoot untuk Resident Evil! Hahaha.

So I guess that's all for my first entry.

p/s: I'm not hoping to get to know new people because the purpose of I'm doing this blog is to make a live journal blog. So, kalau tuan puan nak baca atau nak singgah2, dipersilakan. Saya takde hal ;p